New Chapters
October 2025
It's been just over two years now. Something started to change once I moved into my own place and started a new role at work. Suddenly, I realized that I had created an entirely new life for myself. New living environment, new job, new car, new friends, even a new physical appearance that was starting to emerge. Suddenly, I found myself laughing more and feeling lighter in my day to day life. I was watching my daughter begin to settle into her own life as her wedding approached and my son continued to do his own thing. It felt weird on so many levels, but also empowering to realize that I could do this on my own. That I WAS doing it on my own.
What once seemed impossible, has now become a reality. I am experiencing joy in my life free from the burden of a heavy heart. It wasn't easy and took a tremendous amount of work, but I knew it was a point that I needed to reach. It's what he would want and as time progressed, I knew it was what I wanted.
I loved our story. It didn't end by choice and I will treasure it for the rest of my days. But it is time. Time for me to embrace this new life, new experiences, new people and new memories. All while remembering and honoring the life we built and loved. It's what brought me to this place. It's what made me who I am today. A woman I have fought so very hard to become. Someone who is once again excited about life and what the future holds.
In the early days, I wanted everyone I came across to know that I was a widow. That I was trying to survive the unthinkable. It became my identity and I felt like that's how it was supposed to be. Now I know differently. It's about the whole journey. The journey through grief, healing, personal discovery, faith and the journey to experiencing joy again. That's how we truly honor their memory and the footprint they left on our hearts.
I'm ready to embrace what's next for myself and my family. Life is a gift and I don't want to waste the precious time I have left on this earth.
Here's to new chapters and stories waiting to be written...
